2.15.2012

{Lose Control: Part 1}

Ok. Before I start this post I have 2 things to say…
1. I am deathly afraid the English language is playing a trick on me and lose is actually spelled with 2 o's #englishteacher
2. I am also deathly afraid of writing this because it was such a momentous part of my last year and writing it down means really having to come to grips with the crazy and how God brought me though the crazy. 

Ok. Ready, set, break….
Lose Control Introduction HERE 

Part 1: Lose Control

I have wanted to be a teacher since I was in the third grade. 
No ifs ands or buts about it. I was all in at the age of 9. 

When you know what you are going to do so early in life and then all of a sudden it is November of your senior year of college and you have no idea of "how" you are actually going to accomplish this goal panic tends to ensue. 

Full Fledge PANIC. After knowing for for 10+ years what I was going to do with my life I all of a sudden "thought", key word THOUGHT, I had a change of heart. 
After MUCH prayer, tears and chocolate I knew I had made the right decision to pursue teaching right after college.  The question now was "HOW?"

If you follow the education world, or even if you don't, you were probably aware that budgets were being slashed left and right last year and it was literally the WORST time to be looking for a teaching job. 

"Change of heart"+ Worst year ever to graduate as a teacher= FREAK OUT

I had learned about a public charter school who "specializes" in at risk inner city teens.  Um yes please, sign me up. They take students who are literally 3-4 grades behind and send them to top ranked colleges in a matter of a few years. THIS solved my freakout. THIS is what I wanted to do. I poured my heart and soul into the application process. I attended every information session, booth and lunch they hosted. I ate it up. THIS is what I was to do with my life. PLUS this program just happens to be in the same city as my boyfriend. 
Yes, WIN, WIN, WIN situation. 

November, My application gets accepted… SCORE
January, I ACE my phone interview… SCORE
February, I get asked to do a "in class lesson"…. Really I've so got this in the bag, I can teach with my eyes closed. 

(if that ^^ sounds cocky… it's cause it WAS cocky… my, my Lord how you humble)

I write and re-write the PERFECT lesson. 
I get up at 4:30am and drive to my interview, in the MOST perfect interview outfit, and I begin to teach. 
I have never felt more empowered in my life, I explain the 3 branches of government using an interactive tree, a power point, and an innovative group work approach. I have literally just ROCKED the education world.. or so I thought. 

I leave the school on a HIGH.
All there is left to do it wait. 
So I waited…and waited…and waited. 

until next week :)
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13 comments:

Meghan said...

Really? A cliffhanger!?! Soooo not fair!

Love your stories about the Education World :) That will be me in three years I am sure!

xoxo Meghan

ThisLittleMomma said...

Oh you can't do that!!! Not fair :) Now I want to know what happened, do we really have to wait a week?!?!
xo
Nicole

Emma said...

I read and read and read...then you leave me hanging! I love your passion for teaching already and can't wait to read next week's :)

20 Going on 80 said...

Ahhh noooo...I can't wait until next week! :)

Jessica @ Lovely Little Things said...

Are. You. Kidding. ME?!
I was so into it and...

BAM
done.

Good way to keep them coming back ;)

I like this series. And I'm so glad you're doing it!
THERE. Read that every time you're having second thoughts about it :)

Love you to pieces!
xo

PS: Lose is right...I think?! Now I'm second guessing!

SimplyHeather said...

No, until now ! I want to hear the rest of this :( LOL I don't do well with cliff hangers.

Valerie Griffin said...

Ah, can't wait for part 2!

Heather at 123 said...

Yes, you used the correct spelling. HEHEHE! I can't wait for next week!!

xo
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Jayme and Mendi said...

Oh man...I want to hear the rest!! :-) Love this series of posts!!
Let us know if you end up doing the 7 Deadly Sins TAG. We want to make sure we see your post!
Jayme @ Her Late Night Cravings

Amanda Gail said...

A cliff hanger!??!? Really!!?? Way to get us to come back next week! That is so crazy!!

xox,
Amanda

Aubrey Kinch said...

AHHHHH!!! I kinda need to know what happens, NOW. Please and thanks!

Lindsay @ Trial By Sapphire said...

1. Lose is correct.
2. You're precious.
3. Good way to keep your audience wanting more!

Kristin said...

I found your adorable blog through High 5 For Friday and your cliff hanger hooked me! I'm your newest follower. I'd love you to stop by my blog when you get a chance. And, PLEASE, don't forget to finish your story!

Kristin @ Houseonahillblog.com