{Lose Control Part 2}

Side Note: So remember when I planed to write a part of "Lose Control" once a week… Whoops :) 

Introduction

Part I

Part 2

So I waited…and waited…and waited. 

The school had told me that it would be a few weeks before I would know anything. 

Spring break came and went, and I never worried one bit. I was fully confident my future as a charter school teacher was tied up in a  pretty bow.

Oh how wrong I was.

They did finally call, BUT it was to have me send them a video of me teaching. Again, my super-teacher-not-being-humble-AT-ALL attiutude kicked in.

I sent off my video and waited... and waited.. an waited.

 OH MY LORD I WAS SO SICK OF WAITING.

At this point I have been in the interview process for 5 months at this point. I was exhausted, but still I have not crumbled to God's repeated directives to be humble and at other paths.

I politely called, politely emailed, politely sent smoke signals. Still no word.

SERIOUSLY, 5 MONTHS.

I finally received the last devastating blow.

What I had poured my heart, soul, time and hope in had just ended with an email that started with "I regret to inform you". 

I didn't even cry, I didn't get upset. 

I just sat in udder shock. 

The life I had been planning in my head had just vanished in front of my eyes.

After a few very tough weeks and FRANTIC job applying I had no choice I had to move home.

I was crushed. I was supost to move straight in to a cute apartment, be independent.

So I headed back home.
and here is when I finally start to break down, humbled, and realize I have to start to lose control.


Part 3 next week (promise!)