2.02.2016

When It Just Doesn't Click



I just knew it would all click when we got married.
I just knew it would all click when we got settled into our new apartment.
I just knew it would all click when I started my new job.
I just knew it would click when I got plugged into to a community.

But it didn't. It, whatever it is, didn't click. Honestly, it hasn't clicked quite yet.

I had convinced myself that moving was the magic pill that I needed to push myself out of my comfort zone. It was... for a hot second, but it didn't last long. When a community of wonderful, true, real people didn't materialize at my feet I kinda just gave up. I had rested the last few years on "when Reese and I get married" "when I live in a smaller city" "when I (insert excuse here)".

It was a tough pill to swallow. I decided the best course of action was to throw myself a pity party complete with hats, noise makers and food (poor food choices, actually). Which didn't help anything click-- including my belt. But I finally drew the line in the sand. I am the only one who can make it click.  The pity party ends now.

I'm back at it. I'm gonna make it click. 

6 comments:

Michelle said...

You've got this, girl. I've been there and I totally understand. You are awesome!

Darby Hawley said...

Hang in there beautiful lady! Sometimes it takes time....though that isn't easy of course. I'm proud of you!!!

Alice Kerley said...

You are seriously so amazing and it WILL click soon! Everything takes time. Your life has been a roller coaster with so many changes, and I can't wait to see what the future holds for you! Take a breather, take a walk and enjoy the not so perfect.

And pity parties complete with food are totally okay every once in a while. :)

xo
Alice

katelinlagreca said...

I'm right there with you. Community can be hard to find and it's difficult to make things click. I only moved an hour away, but my friends have all moved to different states making my one hour change of zip code feel a lot bigger. Good luck! We can make things click!

Jordan {FORMER KENNEDY} said...

I completely understand where you're coming from. After college I moved to Orlando and worked at Disney for a few years and after falling in love with my now husband, I decided to pack up and make a fresh start with him in Atlanta shortly after our engagement. It was/has been a very rough transition. I went from having a huge support system around me (both personal and professional) to having to unload everything on poor Brian. This June with make it our second year here and to be honest it still doesn't feel right. It's hard to move and make new friends at our age (I'm assuming you're close in age to Kathleen Norris and myself) so you're not alone :)

Lindsay @ Trial By Sapphire said...

Amen! Amen! Same over here too!